Love and You


Don’t know what tomorrow will bring to me. I’m lost . I’m broken. Maybe not for the first time. But nither for the last. 
Sorry. I can’t tell you the truth. That how much i love you. How much you mean to me. It’s hard for me to pass a day without you. You’re like oxygen. Without you i can’t breath.
It was not easy for me to tell you the truth. You know i feel shy. It’s one of my childhood problems. Maybe you will understand. Someday. 
You gave me lots of memories. But also have given me a broken heart. But i will not blame you for this. It was my fault to love you. Even when i knew that you love someone else. Please forgive me.
I still remember the day, i first saw you. That calmed eyes. That sweet smile. I was a lost dreamer. But you gave me my way. Everything changed that day.
It was my biggest mistake.
I thaoght. A broken dreamer can build a dream. But i was worng. Only luck can give you your dreams. You can’t create them yourself.
Soo good byy. I’ll not come back to your life. No more late night talking. No more hangouts. 
Yeah its pretty weird. That the boy who always used to think positive. Is talking about negative thoughts.
Yess. I’m changed.
Because of You

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The First girl of my life

Flashback.



“I really love her. From the day i saw her, i can’t stop her thoughts. Her beautiful hair. Her mysterious eyes. She is my one and only love. ”
“I can’t live without her. Evetytime i think about her, i just lost in the thoughts. She is like oxigen to me. Looking at her , i found the meaning of my life.”
“She’s amazing. Don’t know if one day she leaves me, what will i do !! I’m afraid to tell her that i love her. If she rejects my proposal?                Don’t know what to do. Without her days like years. ”
Now
2years passed we don’t talk anymore. We are strangers now. Maybe she didn’t even remember my name. Huh !!
Thinks change in a regular way. I said i love her, she said she don’t.    She was like an addiction to me. From this stage get back to normal friendship is impossible for me.
Soo i break our connection. Living a day without her was not easy. But there was nothing to do. She made her decision and so am i .
Maybe I’ll never love another girl like i loved her. But unfortunately my love isn’t what she wanted. May god fullfill her wishes. May she have what she wanted. 
To the girl i loved  
From me 

The Girl 

Sorry.

I know you love me. But i can’t . I’m a free bird, I can’t accept the cage of love now. I’m a teenager , i have too much to do. I have so many dreams to fulfill, too many days to live.
Sorry. I can’t accept your proposal. Maybe nobody will ever love me like you do, but i think I’m not the one who deserves it. 
Maybe one day. 10years later we will meet again. You with your husband, me with my wife.ButThings would be changed too much. 
I just want to thank you. For the love you gave me. 
But i think you must store that for the one who deserves it.

The Unacceptable Love


You say you love me. But why?

I’m a weirdo. An abnormal one. A strange person. How could someone love me !! That’s totally idiotic.

You know.. There was a time when I loved you too. But soon I realized, that love is not suitable for me. I’m not yet ready to go on a long term relationship. I’m a teenager yaar. There is still too many things I have to do. 

Now a days people are so desperate to go on a relationship that they don’t even know how to live a normal life. They just think that having a bf/gf is everything in life. 

Well I am not that type of person. I’m a free bird. I will not stay anywhere for long. I’ll fly away. So relationships are not suitable for me.

I’m a day dreamer. I don’t live in reality. Actually, come to think of that.. I kinda hate it. 

But I’ll always love you as a friend. 

The Boy Who’s Long Gone

Yeah.. I’ve changed. 
This isn’t my fault you know. Situations made me what I am today. I promised some people that I’ll not , but reality was crule. 

9/15 – it’s me

Believing everything some people said to me. Trusting them as my friends. Falling for someone who doesn’t even know me. Well I also don’t know her properly.                       Yeah. This is what iI was.

I was alone . I thought having friends is a pretty great way to get out of my lonelyness. So what I did ?                     Believed that everyone around me is my friend. But that thought was so childish !

9/17 – Other me

Well what else could you expect , I’m all alone again . Now a days, I don’t like to talk to strangers any more. I lock myself up in my room. And here I am talking to myself again. Talking about the shitty decisions I’ve made.    

Pretty weird isn’t it ?

Well I also have found some true friends though. But now a days, I don’t like to talk to people too much. 

I’m really tired of this !

Friends for infinity

Dear cupcake,

You know, i just love you a lot. Every time i see our chats, the smile came out automatically. We don’t have lots of memories but still i love the memories we have. 

We never met before. So i wander  when we meet up , what will be the first thing I’ll do. I just wander . 

We never shared our secrets. Still when i talk to you i feel like i don’t ever need anyone in my life, i just need you. I just can’t explain how special you are to me. 

I wander if you think the same way i think about you. You’re the one person i trust blindly. I know you do the same. 

I wish the bond between us would never broke. 

Best friends for infinity.

Your muffin 🙂

Dreamer’s Girl

​How strange.

I know that you don’t care about me. But still i care about you. Really strange. I know you are ignoring me. But still i can’t. Maybe it’s my weekness. Maybe you are the one I’ve trusted the most. But how can i tell you. I don’t know.

Maybe you can’t trust me the way i do. 

It’s you who give me the light in darkness. It’s you who give me the strength to overcome my fears. But u can’t see that. It’s only my point of view. You are almost every happiness to me. 

Yeah. I can’t tell you that. I’m speechless infront of you. It’s difficultto eexplain how i feel about you. It’s almost impossible. I’m a bit of shy. 

Maybe i love you. Yes, maybe i really do. Maybe you are the one, i really care about you. 

Words can’t describe your beauty. You’re way cuter than you thought. I want you with me in every hard situation i face. And i promise I’ll be with you in your hard times. 

Yeah. It’s way stranger than i thought.

Critical

It’s strange.

You want me as a best friend, without knowing me? 

Strange. Really strange. You know , it’s difficult for me to be bestfriend with someone i didn’t Know properly. Maybe you ware hurt when i say “i can’t” but didn’t want to know, why i said that. 

From my side . I thought that you don’t even care about me. But that day your lines just touched the core of my heart. Your words made me think again about you. For the first time, my prediction for someone got wrong . 

And i knew. That you are not an ordinary girl. You have something special in you.

You know. You’re my best friend. But I’ll not tell you that. I want you to know it by yourself. 

But i think, now you don’t want me the same. Like you wanted me last time. But i don’t care. Its ok to be ordinary friends.

Each and everyday you’re getting important for me. 

we are like the opposite sides of  a same magnate. We have magnatic bonds that attract us. But we can’t meet, cz there is a lot of distence between us.

I really don’t want to lose you. You are the most beautiful thing ever happen to me. 

Please be with me. Always. 

My opposite point.  ❤

Memories of Autumn




13/9

So it’s Monday morning. And i woke up really late today. Cause i was doing the project work last night, and it took me 3am to finish it. So i got lait for school. And i have to stay at home.

I was siting by the window and studying. And i get bored. Through I don’t like to study too much. So i was thinking what to do. And i found nothing except social networking. 

So thinking what to do i realize that Autumn has come. And i didn’t noticed . Actually there was a time when i use to enjoy the Autumn. But now a days i really don’t have time for this . homework, exams if i finally get some me time, i waste it on social networking. It’s one of my bad habits.

Actually when i was a kid, i use to enjoy this time. And i use to wait the whole year for the Autumn. There was a tree in our backyard. He was not just a tree for me. He was my bestest friend. His name was ‘buck’ .

You might be thinking, “name of a tree?!” . Yes !                                             Because he was not just a tree for me, he was my friend. A friend who will never leave me. I use to share my every secret with him. Cause i knew he will never tell it to anyone.

4years ago he died. It was a shock for me. It took me a week to come out from the shok. It was like i lost a part of me. 

After that. I made many friends. Many best friends. But no one could ever replace him. 

Huh..                            

Ouh.. Mom’s calling                               gotta go.

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